Today's post comes from MFAC alum Ann Quiring*. She writes to us on the very real problem of losing the urge to write and how she was able to overcome it.
A few years ago, my internal writing machine, the spark we
all need to get our butt in that chair, shut down. System failure. I just
couldn’t put words together anymore. I quit my writing group. I stopped
attending local kid lit and Hamline MFAC alumni events. I hid from questions
about my writing, because I felt ashamed of my answer.
Hamline taught me to find the heart in a story, and
fortunately, my writing journey has a hopeful ending.
The reason for my writing breakdown was rooted in a critique
for a novel I had worked on for a long time. I know what you’re thinking: Ann, we have to be able to hear tough
critiques as writers. We need thick skin. I know. But this critique cut
into my writing soul like no other response I had heard before. I can’t explain
why; it just stopped me from even thinking
about a revision, or a new project.
So instead of writing, I read. I devoured literary fiction,
mysteries, memoir, and short stories. Reading is a natural way to fight
writer’s block, and my reading led me to finding a new genre. I had enjoyed every
mystery I read, so last fall I took a Crime Fiction Writing class at The Loft
Literary Center in Minneapolis. This class helped me dissect the mystery novel
and inspire my writing in a new way.
I also started tutoring writing at The Mid-Continent
Oceanographic Institute, a local non-profit dedicated to supporting young students
with writing and homework. Tutoring brings me joy every week; the kids inspire
me to work harder on my own writing. Recently a young student of mine wrote two
pages about a chair in the room. If she can crank out two pages about a chair,
I can surely write two pages a day.
This month, I’m taking a Gothic Horror Writing class taught
by MFAC alum Jackie Hesse (she is a great teacher). Now I really don’t like
gothic horror—I faint at the sight of blood—but I thought the class would
complement my mystery writing and teach me a few things about suspense, and it
has.
During this time of rediscovery, I started writing a young
adult mystery novel, and I just shared the first chapter with some fellow
writers. I am writing again. Sharing my writing is still as terrifying to me as
a gothic novel, but it’s also home. I’ve found comfort in writing again.
If you find yourself stuck, try something new and different.
Take a sewing class. Jump on a trampoline. Discover new people in your
community. As simple and clichéd as it sounds, it worked for me.
*Ann Quiring likes to brag about being in the very first (and
in her unbiased opinion, the very best) Hamline MFAC class of 2009. She lives
and drinks a lot of strong coffee in Minneapolis, MN.