I hid brochures for MFA programs in my bottom desk
drawer. Every few months I’d take them out, page through, dream a little… Until
finally in 2009 I enrolled in Hamline University’s MFA in Writing for Children
and Young Adults. The program took two years of concentrated study at home, and
for 60 days, spread over five residencies, I lived in the Twin Cities, away
from children and family. It was a significant investment in time, energy,
never-over-abundant funds, but now, five years after graduation, I can say
without question, the MFA was worth every dollar, every hour in the MSP
airport, every frantic trip to the library to pay my fines so I could pick up
yet more holds. Hamline’s MFA gave me far more than I spent (or bled) to earn
it. Like…
1. An MFA filled my toolbox with New Writing Tools and
showed me how to better use the tools I already had.
Was I pounding in nails with a screwdriver? What could I
do with a jigsaw? I learned about psychic distance and filters, I re-learned
plot and characterization and so much more. Could I have broken through my
plateau on my own? I’m not sure. Maybe, with enough time and enough reading.
And if an MFA only provided tools, then I might question the value. But the MFA
gave me more than a single workshop or another book on writing. It gave me more
than tools.
Pre MFA my reading was all over the place. I’d go to the
library, check out books based on recommendations or labels on the spine: Oh,
Mystery! I want to write a mystery, too! As if I were looking through the lens
of my DSLR set to manual with the focus ring turned the wrong way, all the
world’s books looked the same. I never knew what new books were worth reading,
or what old books were true classics I couldn’t live without.
2. An MFA provided Focus.
Before my first residency I began on Hamline’s Required
Reading List—120 curated books spanning all genres and age groups which
provided us a grounding in the literature we were learning to write and a
common vocabulary. Plus each residency added several must-read books for
different topics we'd study that semester. Even now I can post to my alumni
group, “What’s a good middle
grade novel on bullying?” and get a dozen relevant titles, sometimes in a
matter of minutes. Which leads to another perk…
I came into my program set on writing young adult (YA).
It’s what I’d always written, what I always read, but,
3. My MFA program helped me Become a More Versatile
Writer.
I spent an entire semester working the the amazing Phyllis
Root on picture books. Another semester ignited a love for poetry that grew and
influenced my graduating thesis—a novel in verse for middle grade readers, and
my first two published books will be—not YA—but picture books. Speaking of
publication…
I once dreaded writing query letters. I agonized over the hook,
wrote and rewrote a bio that sparkled while still being…true. Because while it
looks great in a bio, I’m not a celebrity, don’t have a doctorate, and don’t
have one single superpower. Unless Able to Scale Mountains of Laundry counts.
4. The MFA gave me a Credential, and with it Credibility.
A degree from a good institution is noticed. It is respected. An
MFA qualifies me not just to lead workshops (and get paid for them), but to
teach. At the college level. The credential proves I put in time, tears, and
money, that I’m committed to being an author. It proves to me, on those days
when I’m cleaning up one toddler-tornado disaster after another that I am a
writer. A real writer. Because sometimes it's easy to forget...
I’d worked at this writing thing so long and so hard and had so
many Close Calls (“I brought
this to committee, but unfortunately…” “I love your work, but this book just
isn’t quite…”), I truly
believed I’d be stuck in the slush pile forever.
5 An MFA Can Open Doors to the Publishing World.
When I began the MFA I had no idea one of my classmates would go
on to become an editor with a big house. I had no idea other classmates would
find an agent who would happen to be a good friend of my agent. The industry is
an interconnected web, and I wouldn’t be surprised to learn that my network of
alumni stretches, somehow, to every publishing house on the planet. Alumni,
faculty, we all work together, sharing knowledge, names, connections and yes,
even stolen carrots.
Speaking of carrots, I once felt isolated on this writing
journey. Sure I had a critique group and I had a few writer friends, though out
of necessity most overlapped with Mommy Friends or school-pick-up friends. My
segmented life had only a small hole carved out for Me as Writer.
6 The MFA Gifted Me with Community.
Friendships I’ll treasure forever. Each residency became a
celebration: These are my people. They understand me, care about the same
things, share my passions and dreams. I still remember many late-night
conversations with my first-residency roommate—our instant connection that
continues to this day. And remember the carrots? Late-night pick-up games of
Dixit, glasses of wine at the hotel bar. I forged memories, shared life with
people who, five years later, continue to share life and inspire me, goad me to
keep at this exhausting art. Because…
When I began the MFA I thought I knew everything. I’d read all
the books (hadn't I?), I knew all the rules (didn’t I?). I was a great, or, um
pretty good writer (wasn't I?). Beneath the bravado a crippling terror
whispered that I was a pretender, a hack.
7 Hamline’s MFA
in Writing for Children and Young Adults Gave me Confidence. And Humility.
Learning always builds confidence. But there’s nothing quite like
seeing a whole universe of expertise—faculty, visiting writers and publishing
professionals—to make me acutely aware of how much I didn’t know. Yet. Because
I now have the tools, community, and support to continue learning as long as
there are new things to learn.
Which would be, in case you're wondering, forever.
Rebecca Grabill graduated in summer 2011 and has two forthcoming
picture books, Halloween Goodnight (S&S 2017) and Violet and the Woof (HC
2018). She lives and writes in Michigan. Find out more about Rebecca and her
writing at www.rebeccagrabill.com/blog.
Terrific essay, Rebecca. I remember your first residency, your first shared work. I felt the power and energy of your new and scary beginning--I was awed by your talent and bravery and I felt very lucky to be in your workshop. I have always valued my MFA, but I love being reminded of why, and also of how lucky we are to have so much more to learn. I might not have known that without Hamline. Oh yes, and congratulations on your books!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Jane!!! I remember your story and your grad reading well. I'm so thrilled to see things happening with it! (It is the same one, right?)
DeleteRebecca, what an articulate, passionate piece on a topic that so many writers wonder about - is it worth the money? Thank you for taking time to share your wisdom. And to think you did with young children and another on the way ... your essay should be given to all those who apply to Hamline MFAC.
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